Most of the 20+ years that I have taught have been dedicated to elementary Physical Education. When I am in the gym, scrambling to shift and adjust equipment between classes, playing my eclectic mix of 70’s – 90’s pop, and doing a cartwheel on my way to pick up the next class, then I am in my element. Once the kids arrive and I’m responding to a series of requests and questions all within the first 30 seconds while I try to get everyone moving as soon as possible, then I reconnect with the gritty reality of how many decisions in a single class period? and remind myself, this is a choice. Teaching is so familiar to me. I have earned my 10,000 hours of practice and while there’s still so much to learn and certainly to improve, I feel at home in my methods, my philosophy, and in my commitment to doing right by kids.
Down the road and to the left of my day-to-day teaching are those conceptual edifices: curriculum and standards, scope and sequences, benchmarks, exit criteria; essential questions and enduring understandings, and so on. They hold their ground and need constant refurbishing. Where they stand in relationship to me and my teaching and student learning can confuse me on occasion. Of course, there need to be structures for determining what we are teaching, why we are teaching it at all, and how it should be taught. This makes sense to me. There needs to be *a plan based on students’ needs; a way of deciding how those multiple and varied needs will be met in achieving the desired learning outcomes. Accepted.
As one would expect, my colleague and I create a road plan of what topics we intend to cover with each grade level every year. We have objectives, a clear time frame in which to fulfill those objectives, and we have a wealth of lesson plans and activities to get us where we believe (and our curriculum says) our students need to go. Great.
And yet, whenever we sit down and are presented again with fresh standards and their intended outcomes – pages and pages of color-coded charts, loaded with text and cleverly notated with abbreviations like: S1E7 24, well then, I have to admit, my eyes glaze over and I wish I could be doing something, anything else, but this. Although the conversations my colleagues and I get into over the categorization and terminology of our craft are stimulating and often charged, most of us also struggle with the process of documenting and (ultimately justifying) our inventory.
What’s funny about this situation is that I’m a language lover. I can formulate and reformulate until the cows come home. Wordsmithing is second nature. When it comes to curriculum writing and mapping, however, I would be your girl, if only it excited me enough. And sadly, curriculum design and standards alignment, just do not do it for me. Yet. Participating in the conversations, having the need for the “refurbishing” process explained to me once again, and engaging with the material – these all have value. Even so, I feel like a very impatient middle-schooler while sitting in that room, folding and unfolding my arms while I try my best to appear focused in front of my peers.
Becoming a connected educator has helped me to appreciate that although this post feels embarrassingly confessional, like I’m telling a dirty little secret, there are probably at least a few folks out there who can empathize. I am connected and therefore not alone. And there may be someone out there who will say, “Hey, I hear you and I can help!” Perhaps there’s someone out there who can say: “here’s how I learned to make that process work for me.” Because I don’t want to shut out the possibility. I never used to eat cheese and now I enjoy mozzarella. I know that I can learn and change.
While it does seem highly unlikely that I will ever become a curriculum guru, I do intend to continue becoming a better teacher. Being and staying connected with my diverse and highly engaged Personal Learning Network (PLN) means that I have every opportunity to keep working at just that.
*”a plan, based on children’s needs” – maybe that’s where my disconnect originates – I’m not always sure that standards and curriculum are truly developed with kids’ diverse needs in mind. That’s a conversation for another post.